Live for the moment.

Ask me anything   @valeriecma | Oct. 20, 1993 | KKC c/o 2011 | DIRECTIONER FOR LIFE. <3 | Love my friends <3 | Wants to travel the world. :] | If you cant stop the future. Make the moment last forever. :] | “Keep a daily diary of your dreams, goals and accomplishments. If your life is worth living, it’s worth recording.” (Marilyn Grey) | Hope you like my blog.

Different Mindsets.

Going into my 4th year of college, I’ve been thinking about where I would be next year and where my friends would be. This is their Senior Year and most of them are actually going to graduate in the Spring. I’ve also been thinking about how far we have come since high school and how much we all have grown through out college.

I’m going into my 4th year of college but I am not graduating this year. Hopefully Spring 2016. I’ve been through so much these 4 years of college. I’ve lost some friends, I have transferred back home because I did not like my first college, and now I’m thinking about the future. But some good things happened through out these bad things; I’ve made a lot of new friends, me and my best friend are best friend again, I did a road trip across  the country with one of my new friend, and I’ve spent more time with my family. I can not even imagine what I would be doing after I graduate. 

Right now, I can’t believe that some of my friends are going to be done with college and onto the ‘real world’. They’ll have to find jobs and work like adults, not that we’re not adults. Right now, I have a friend that just finish college early in California and he moved back home all the way across America. Currently, he is working a different job but next month he’s going to be a real estate agent in New York City, selling multi-million condos and houses to people. Then I have another close friends who got to do everything he ever wanted and more throughout his years in college. He has study aboard 3 times to England, Spain, South Africa, Denmark, and more. Now, he’s in the early program for Teach for America, one of the fews that got into Teach for America early for their new program. I just can’t believe that he has his first few years down after graduation, he gets to do what he was planning all along. To me, I can’t even imagine not going to school anymore, let alone work; I’ve been in school for all of my life so far and I’m almost done. It’s just so surreal to me that my friends are going places. It feels like I’m younger than them because they’re going places, and I’m proud of them but that makes me feel like I’m maybe beneath them because I’ll still be in school while they are out doing what they love. 

I was talking to my friend that’s going to be a real estate agent next month, and he said it’s just a mindset, and he’s right. Not everyone graduates from college within 4 years, some finish early and some finish after 4 years. It just depends on your paste. Some don’t even get a job right out of college, it might take time. That just said you should do all you can through out college, do what you want and not let anyone bring you down.

Some people go through transferring in college to get what you want. Like me, even after a couple of bad years of college, I’ve changed my whole attitude and is making a come back. I’ve got my GPA up and taking more classes so I can transfer faster. I plan on transferring soon to a school in SoCal and I will do what I want there, like study aboard, make more new friends and just have my family be proud of me. I am the oldest on both my mom and dad side so everyone look up to me. Currently, I have 2 of my cousins in college already going into their 3rd years and 2 cousins and my sisters applying to colleges next month. I just can’t believe that they’re going to college next year and looking at my cousins choices, I can see that they are going places and far. I am proud of them but I still feel like I’m beneath them because the colleges that they are applying to are the big ones and I was thinking that, I’ll be done by the time they go to college, but I guess not. It’s like they don’t even look up to me anymore and that I’m setting a bad example to them. 

Well, my friend was right, it is just all a mindset. It’s a mindset that I’ve had for a while since the end of last year and I don’t think it’s going to go away until I actually accomplish what I want. I know I should be proud of how far I’ve come and that I shouldn’t put myself down but it just happens sometimes.

So if you have this mindset, don’t put yourself down, it’ll only make it worst, trust me, I’ve been through it many times. Just think about what you have accomplish over the years and continue doing what you’re doing to get what you want.

Hope you like my post. I’m come back to post some more soon. Trying to start a new thing and post more of my thoughts. :]

— 1 week ago
#091814. 
Worst Day Ever.

Today has been a bad day from the min. I woke up to now.

After this morning when I thought today couldn’t get any worst. I wasn’t that annoyed when I woke up but I usually get annoyed when I have to wake up early on the day I dont have class to take my sibling to school. I dont even get to sleep in anymore. On top of that, they were late this morning because there was traffic right before i was going to exit. Then after I dropped them off, I got in an accident, and to be honest, I don’t really know if it was my fault or not. I hate traffic! ohh, I caused more traffic for the first time in my life. And I didn’t even have my license on me because i was driving my mom’s car. After that, my mom kept asking me about the accident. =.=’ soo annoying. After spending that day at the bakery, I thought my day would get better until I waited for my mom at home to take me to Victoria Secret to pay my bill, and oh look, they were closing so I couldn’t pay my bill. Now it’s late. My mom said they closed at 9 but it was 8. So then I got home, and got a bad new message from Francis. :/ Ohh! And everyone at home is soo annoying and rude, like are you serious, what is your problem! They better be lucky I’m taking them to school and not making them take BART! UNGRATEFUL KIDS.

Signn, WORST DAY EVER! 

Too much as happened this month, I just want it to be over and on to October now so I can be excited for my 21st. 

— 1 week ago
#091714. 

One day I’ll be able to spin a globe, pick a place and go from there. 😊

— 2 weeks ago
#091314. 
"When you are attracted to people, it’s because of the details. Their kindness. Their eyes. The fact that they can get you to laugh when you need it the most."
Jodi Picoult, Sing You Home  (via m-delaa)

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— 3 weeks ago with 6459 notes
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Long Exposure of an Airliner Lifting Off

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Long Exposure of an Airliner Lifting Off

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— 3 weeks ago with 61519 notes
Summer 2014: Thanks for making this my best summer yet. :] The travels, the random nights, the hangouts, the parties, and the new friends. I haven&#8217;t done this much in a summer in forever and thanks to you guys, I was able too. As summer was coming to an end, you guys were all slowly going back to school, soo I&#8217;ll be home waiting for you guys to come back; Winter 2014. Don&#8217;t forget we still have winter of 2014!  And for the ones that doesn&#8217;t live in the bay or Cali, comee visit me! You guys better come homee! Love you guys! 😊😘❤️✌️#Thanks. #RoadTrips. #AcrossCounty. #SoCal. #Sacramento. #SF. #Beaches. #TheCrew. #LoveYahh. #EndofSummer. #090714.

Summer 2014: Thanks for making this my best summer yet. :] The travels, the random nights, the hangouts, the parties, and the new friends. I haven’t done this much in a summer in forever and thanks to you guys, I was able too. As summer was coming to an end, you guys were all slowly going back to school, soo I’ll be home waiting for you guys to come back; Winter 2014. Don’t forget we still have winter of 2014! And for the ones that doesn’t live in the bay or Cali, comee visit me! You guys better come homee! Love you guys! 😊😘❤️✌️#Thanks. #RoadTrips. #AcrossCounty. #SoCal. #Sacramento. #SF. #Beaches. #TheCrew. #LoveYahh. #EndofSummer. #090714.

— 3 weeks ago
#thecrew  #loveyahh  #endofsummer  #sacramento  #090714  #acrosscounty  #socal  #thanks  #roadtrips  #sf  #beaches 

I’m having an annoying day. Everyone is annoying to me. Just leave me alonee and go away! Arughhh! Everything is soo annoyingg.

— 3 weeks ago
#annoyed. 
"The lonely ghost girl." 👻
-William Chin
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#SoCal #WeddingDress? #LatePost #083114.

"The lonely ghost girl." 👻
-William Chin
Photocredit: @bchin86 
#SoCal #WeddingDress? #LatePost #083114.

— 4 weeks ago
#083114  #latepost  #weddingdress  #socal