Going into my 4th year of college, I’ve been thinking about where I would be next year and where my friends would be. This is their Senior Year and most of them are actually going to graduate in the Spring. I’ve also been thinking about how far we have come since high school and how much we all have grown through out college.
I’m going into my 4th year of college but I am not graduating this year. Hopefully Spring 2016. I’ve been through so much these 4 years of college. I’ve lost some friends, I have transferred back home because I did not like my first college, and now I’m thinking about the future. But some good things happened through out these bad things; I’ve made a lot of new friends, me and my best friend are best friend again, I did a road trip across the country with one of my new friend, and I’ve spent more time with my family. I can not even imagine what I would be doing after I graduate.
Right now, I can’t believe that some of my friends are going to be done with college and onto the ‘real world’. They’ll have to find jobs and work like adults, not that we’re not adults. Right now, I have a friend that just finish college early in California and he moved back home all the way across America. Currently, he is working a different job but next month he’s going to be a real estate agent in New York City, selling multi-million condos and houses to people. Then I have another close friends who got to do everything he ever wanted and more throughout his years in college. He has study aboard 3 times to England, Spain, South Africa, Denmark, and more. Now, he’s in the early program for Teach for America, one of the fews that got into Teach for America early for their new program. I just can’t believe that he has his first few years down after graduation, he gets to do what he was planning all along. To me, I can’t even imagine not going to school anymore, let alone work; I’ve been in school for all of my life so far and I’m almost done. It’s just so surreal to me that my friends are going places. It feels like I’m younger than them because they’re going places, and I’m proud of them but that makes me feel like I’m maybe beneath them because I’ll still be in school while they are out doing what they love.
I was talking to my friend that’s going to be a real estate agent next month, and he said it’s just a mindset, and he’s right. Not everyone graduates from college within 4 years, some finish early and some finish after 4 years. It just depends on your paste. Some don’t even get a job right out of college, it might take time. That just said you should do all you can through out college, do what you want and not let anyone bring you down.
Some people go through transferring in college to get what you want. Like me, even after a couple of bad years of college, I’ve changed my whole attitude and is making a come back. I’ve got my GPA up and taking more classes so I can transfer faster. I plan on transferring soon to a school in SoCal and I will do what I want there, like study aboard, make more new friends and just have my family be proud of me. I am the oldest on both my mom and dad side so everyone look up to me. Currently, I have 2 of my cousins in college already going into their 3rd years and 2 cousins and my sisters applying to colleges next month. I just can’t believe that they’re going to college next year and looking at my cousins choices, I can see that they are going places and far. I am proud of them but I still feel like I’m beneath them because the colleges that they are applying to are the big ones and I was thinking that, I’ll be done by the time they go to college, but I guess not. It’s like they don’t even look up to me anymore and that I’m setting a bad example to them.
Well, my friend was right, it is just all a mindset. It’s a mindset that I’ve had for a while since the end of last year and I don’t think it’s going to go away until I actually accomplish what I want. I know I should be proud of how far I’ve come and that I shouldn’t put myself down but it just happens sometimes.
So if you have this mindset, don’t put yourself down, it’ll only make it worst, trust me, I’ve been through it many times. Just think about what you have accomplish over the years and continue doing what you’re doing to get what you want.
Hope you like my post. I’m come back to post some more soon. Trying to start a new thing and post more of my thoughts. :]